Guys.....I'm really sorry

I have really stressful days.........I....cry almost every evening because of school. Nobody will uderstand me....well some can uderstand but who is from Russia......we have really hard exams here. Math is very very hard for me, almost can't uderstand it and do a lot mistakes..........this year our goverment said that math have two ways, math for life (like easy exam) and math with hight level. I hoped I can pass math for life because there easier tasks but........today I found out that I should pass the yards exam of math for university to get enough goals.......I can't take it because I'm the stupidest person in my  class who can't do anything! I saw marks of my classmates and they have it highter than me! All of them.......

so why I write journal, my parents kind of mad at me, so I can say I won't draw until summer. Well I will try, but I guess not......so some with who I was gonna art trades, I'm so sorry but I won't be able to do it.....:..until summer......